That Burning Smell is Me Thinking…

Blog posts about not writing blog posts are lame and this is kind of what this blog post is about. What would keep me from posting about all the juicy details of my current life right now? I am continuing a project I started last year, I am writing about my life. Much of it, I feel, is not fit for public consumption.

Right now I am writing about my teenage and early adult years. It was a time that in some ways I am proud of, but I also did many things I would rather keep to myself. It is helping me hone my writing skills and work on remembering the past and learning from it. It has also put me in a dark place spiritually, but I know I have to walk through this before I move on with my life. I haven’t been naughty or anything like that, I just have been working through many feelings that this project is dredging up.

I have been remembering names, places and details and as I remember one thing, it may pull another memory to the surface. I am beginning to realize how conflicted and aimless I was. My ideals didn’t match my reality sometimes. I am still very idealistic, but I also realize that many people don’t share my views and I accept that.

I am in Texas for Thanksgiving visiting family and it has been kind of relaxing. I have eaten turkey and Tex-Mex and injested plenty of cold medicine.

The woman next to me on the plane was coughing and sneezing and I tried my best to avoid it. I didn’t touch anything. I didn’t eat or drink anything nor did I look in her direction. I guess the germs were airborne because I got it. So I have been sick during my visit. It is kind of a drag, but I have been getting some much needed rest. I am not too sick to enjoy myself, but I am having to pace myself. Actually, I am feeling pretty rotten. I am thinking about canceling the family get together this afternoon. I know some people might be upset, but I am not feeling too good and I will be really busy when I get back to Chicago.

I have to make a decision soon because I think we are leaving soon.